Day 30. Presence

Here, let go of the worries of the past and the worries of the future. Just be in the presence of now, and deeply let go. 

 

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It is the first of September, a new school year, and I have completed my 30- day yoga challenge. I feel both invigorated and calm, inspired and grounded, as well as a deep sense of well-being. 

It is amazing what can happen if we put our minds to it: growth, accomplishment, forgiveness, love, kindness… it is ever important to be in a healthy state of mind and body in order to deliver to our professions and share in the company of friends and family. 

As I completed my savasana tonight, I felt the soothing waves of cool breeze coming in through my window. The rain had gently started, and with each raindrop I felt the cleansing significance of my practice. In every breath, step, and drop, I felt gratitude and love for the people I have in my life. 

 

 

Labour day

There aren’t any yoga classes that I can attend today because of the long weekend. I went blueberry picking instead! There are farms all around Richmond so my friend and I went to an abandoned farm to forage.

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Blueberry plants are quite pretty!

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Washing and sifting through the leaves and branches.

I bagged and froze them to use in my morning Vega One smoothies! It’s so exciting to pick your own fruit and harvest your own vegetables. I am going to garden if and when I move closer to a community garden.

In other news, picketing resumes tomorrow and I am going to stay as positive as I can be. It is too tiring to feel disappointed and then to complain about how inefficient and unstable things are right now. Instead, I am going to enjoy the time spent with other teachers on the line. Also going to continue my daily yoga challenge until this strike ends.

Tonight I am going to do some yin yoga before I go to sleep.

Day 29. Forgiveness

It is powerful to be in a space where honesty and compassion rules. Not that it solves problems instantly in conversation but that it allows for truth and then slowly forgiveness. Allowing me to realize the beauty of each present moment, and the strength and renewal that has been sparked. To tap into my newness, the confidence and independence to be fully devoted and loving, but without ignoring the honest emotions I feel. The final goal, to leave the past in the past and marvel instead at the wonder of the lessons learned and changes happening.

Flow yoga this Sunday morning. Feeling sore from my run yesterday, so I’m looking forward to stretch. Feeling so strong and grounded! One more day left of this yoga challenge.

Day 28: action

Knowledge, without action, is useless.  It’s not what you learn, it’s what you live.”  

Dr Kyla Dillard

Sometimes I am tentative about going to power yoga class because it is so intense. I am always grateful after finishing, because I feel confidence in my body’s ability to be strong in the end, no matter how tired or stiff I feel beforehand.

During one of the vinyasa sequences, I realized that I have been neglecting my body prior to this yoga challenge. I assumed that mental fatigue meant that my body was tired too. I didn’t realize that I could energize my body physically by eating healthy power foods and allowing it to work through exercise to bring mental clarity.

Still having trouble with lunges because my flat feet hurt from flexing. Definitely going deeper in my hip openers and forward folds, so I think my spine and back feel better about extension poses. I was able to attempt wheel pose today! I will work on raising my hips and curving my back more.

It is hard to believe that the summer break is coming to an end this weekend. Still waiting on news from the bctf and our school board.

Day 27: time

Restorative class was wonderfully smooth. I felt very even and relaxed.

Not much else to say except that I feel like I have more time by taking time to take care of my body. It’s a great, positive cycle.

Time is a mysterious healer of all injuries. Even the chronic pain can even out to a softer, manageable condition with the right attitude. Feeling strong in all aspects.

On another note, I spent two hours in the company of books at the bookstore then at the public library. Borrowed a book and am enjoying the pleasures of sharing a book with all the people who have read it before me. Some people think it’s unsanitary or impersonal, but I rather think it’s quite a unique connection with the people in our city.

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I've got four of his other books on hold.

Professional growth

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I think there should be more open dialogue about being a young professional.

The reality is that tonight has not been the only night I’ve been up past midnight fretting about my career. (I am certain that I am not the first.) Now that I have actually begun climbing the ladder I feel anxiety similar to the panic I feel when I encounter heights. It is a fear of the unknown, the feeling that I must climb higher and knowing that the fall could potentially be further. I feel anxiety about my ability to stay strong and calm even when my palms sweat with anxiety during the worst parts. I also feel excitement about climbing closer to the top, and getting out of this terribly frightening experience of climbing in thin air, unsupported.

Knowing that there are so many opportunities available to me as a new teacher is an incredibly wonderful and exciting thing for which I am grateful. However, I am running through scenario after another, of all the planning, prepping, and strategies I need to pull off a decent job as a new teacher in each of the positions I’ve applied for. It is humbling to know that I will almost definitely not be good enough. It takes every effort to remind myself that it’s okay to make mistakes and it takes every teacher years of practice ( failed lessons and frustrating tears) before they truly settle into the profession. That no teacher was born with all the right answers and strategies.

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A piece of wisdom from a third grader, a throwback to an old post.

The point is, I want to grow professionally. I have a desire to share my passion for education with my future staff, students, and their parents. It is my passion to make a difference. Right now, I must overcome my fear of the “What ifs” and know that I will be a great teacher, if not today then tomorrow/next year/in five years. And even then, there will be hard days of trying patience and angry situations. I must know that whatever skills I learn from my mistakes and failures now will undoubtedly serve to solve even tougher and complicated situations later on in my career.

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The politics that dictate education can be extremely tricky to understand as a new teacher. It takes some skill to navigate all the opinions and stances that everyone has.

The hard reality is that I must take whatever I can get, teach whatever is available for me to teach in the district no matter if it’s my worst subject, my least favourite, or the worst schedule. There is potential for me to learn from every moment so I cannot afford to live in fear and miss out on those important lessons.

Being a post graduate young professional, it is difficult to find balance in finances, friendships, wellness, and professional growth. Much of it we did not learn in school. These life skills must be learned the hard way, through experience. Last year went by so quickly, and I am looking forward to the next level of intensity that this year might offer.

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My classroom last term. I never planned on teaching band!

A link to my pedagogy .

Day 25 and 26: will power

Due to last minute work scheduling I doubled up today to make up for missing yesterday’s class.

In the power class I felt off balance in my tree pose and sun salutations. However, I felt a lot of strength in my core in the mat sequences. I must remember to tap into my core next time I am in my balance poses. I noticed that I am able to hold my planks and core twists for longer. Perhaps I am stronger now, but I also feel more peace and patience when I breathe through the held poses.

I definitely feel that I have more will power in my persistence to stay strong mentally and physically. There is more patience and confidence from previous achievements that pushes me through each moment of class. I feel its effects most powerfully in my daily life.

Relaxed in yin class, focusing on the alignment of my spine and balance of left and right. Embraced my body for the way it is and felt grateful to myself for making better health-conscious lifestyle choices.