I think there should be more open dialogue about being a young professional.
The reality is that tonight has not been the only night I’ve been up past midnight fretting about my career. (I am certain that I am not the first.) Now that I have actually begun climbing the ladder I feel anxiety similar to the panic I feel when I encounter heights. It is a fear of the unknown, the feeling that I must climb higher and knowing that the fall could potentially be further. I feel anxiety about my ability to stay strong and calm even when my palms sweat with anxiety during the worst parts. I also feel excitement about climbing closer to the top, and getting out of this terribly frightening experience of climbing in thin air, unsupported.
Knowing that there are so many opportunities available to me as a new teacher is an incredibly wonderful and exciting thing for which I am grateful. However, I am running through scenario after another, of all the planning, prepping, and strategies I need to pull off a decent job as a new teacher in each of the positions I’ve applied for. It is humbling to know that I will almost definitely not be good enough. It takes every effort to remind myself that it’s okay to make mistakes and it takes every teacher years of practice ( failed lessons and frustrating tears) before they truly settle into the profession. That no teacher was born with all the right answers and strategies.
A piece of wisdom from a third grader, a throwback to an old post.
The point is, I want to grow professionally. I have a desire to share my passion for education with my future staff, students, and their parents. It is my passion to make a difference. Right now, I must overcome my fear of the “What ifs” and know that I will be a great teacher, if not today then tomorrow/next year/in five years. And even then, there will be hard days of trying patience and angry situations. I must know that whatever skills I learn from my mistakes and failures now will undoubtedly serve to solve even tougher and complicated situations later on in my career.
The politics that dictate education can be extremely tricky to understand as a new teacher. It takes some skill to navigate all the opinions and stances that everyone has.
The hard reality is that I must take whatever I can get, teach whatever is available for me to teach in the district no matter if it’s my worst subject, my least favourite, or the worst schedule. There is potential for me to learn from every moment so I cannot afford to live in fear and miss out on those important lessons.
Being a post graduate young professional, it is difficult to find balance in finances, friendships, wellness, and professional growth. Much of it we did not learn in school. These life skills must be learned the hard way, through experience. Last year went by so quickly, and I am looking forward to the next level of intensity that this year might offer.
My classroom last term. I never planned on teaching band!
A link to my pedagogy .