Life has been a blur of commitments and responsibilities. I have hardly had any time to sit down and complete a reflection from start to finish. In fact, there have been three drafts of blog posts that had been interrupted by students, my parents, or my own running list of errands. I take full responsibility, though, for I admit not making enough time for myself to unwind and process what’s been going on in my life. I have just been letting life take me on a run and I haven’t had a chance to slow down and catch my breath.
My training for the marathon had been cut short in the beginning when I realized that my running training had to be controlled in order to minimize impact on my flat feet. Then, Chinese New Year and then my parents’ move interrupted my healthy routine, and I’ve been struggling to find motivation to get out the door and run. Of course, the heavy snow that bombarded us here in the Lower Mainland did not time well with my increasing motivation to start running again. I vow that I will go out for a jog today just to overcome these barriers, finally.
The terrible weather did, interestingly, serve as Nature’s way to forcing me to stop going at full power. On Tuesday I arranged to do a international development presentation to Cedar Grove Elementary on the Sunshine Coast.
Ironically, the school was closed due to a power outage from the 8 inches of snow.
Not only were we snowed-in in Gibsons, but the ferry also broke down which encouraged us to stay another day. We got to do our presentation and Q&A sessions at the school on Wednesday, which worked out so that we didn’t have to make another trip back again.
Between Tuesday and Wednesday I finally sat down to eat some hearty meals, and went outside to hike in the snowy forest. I realized how little time I had been making for myself, working two full jobs and handling my parents’ move.
It was strange, feeling as guilty as I did, enjoying the time off that was forced on me. Come back home, I feel a little un-anchored, as if work defines me. I felt empty, aimless, and a little insecure. Insecure in the sense that I seem to have no purpose. (It is also a little frightening to think of Spring Break coming up…no work then either!!) But, I need to remind myself that work is not the only purpose in life.
It’s been almost a full week of not teaching, and I miss the daily interactions with students that sent me home drained and exhausted. Still, I am more in touch with myself. I feel stronger and healthier. It also feels wonderfully satisfying to finally finish typing a whole blog post without being interrupted by anything but my freshly brewed coffee sitting with me!
Now, I await the results from the fundraiser at Cedar Grove, led by their grade 7 class as part of their global initiative. Look at their beautiful posters! It’s been three years since the involvement of this sister school, and their contributions have sure come a long, long way!
Here is the link to the Prezi that I made for Cedar Grove students– it depicts a wonderful journey of our grassroots project in rural Uganda!